Unemployed and overworked

I hate being unemployed. I hate the word layoff. I hate the thought that higher ups decided our fates. Yes him, not her, yes her, not him.

It's given me time to do all the pet projects I've been meaning to do. I've thrown myself into every one of them wholeheartedly with no time to waste. You never know, I may get a job tomorrow and I won't be able to work on them at all. Would that be lucky or awful? I need to work. I need to pay the mortgage. But I don't want to continue being a peon. I have to make my own chances. Take the risks. But if I don't take the jobs offered to me am I going to regret it 3 months down the line when I'm still begging for that $475 unemployment check? I just looked at my calendar and everyday has been booked with meetings and lunches that so far have gone no where. Something will pay off. I just have to keep finding my happy place - the bright spots. Cheer up, kid! They all know you're good at what you do, if only you could figure out what it is that you do.

Okay, so I need a job. Now I get a free month at Media Match.com if I blog about them. Well here it is. http://www.media-match.com/jobsboard.php They've got a ton of job listings and I apply for all of them and watch as no one calls me. But at least it makes me feel like I'm keeping busy. Running around in my little hamster cage hoping for that drip of water.